“I am serene and in a good place. I am doing more meditation and being in my own skin. I write all of the time, whether I feel like it or not because writing is better when I am out of sorts. Writing is the distraction, the life preserver and the outlet that takes the focus off how insane I am. You are neurotic, dysfunctional and trying to work it out, but it never gets worked out. Pain has a way of bending things. When you are in pain, normalcy is always an illusion. I am driven towards serenity. To find a way to breathe easy and have honest, meaningful relationships.
I have to keep going down this road to be spiritually happy so I can enjoy life. I have tried it all and have seen what fame looks like from the inside. My ex was a movie star. I have been around moneyed people and drug addicts, criminals who live in the underground and transvestites. I have played in front of 50,000 people and it feels great, but six hours later it is “Am I still the same guy? Didn’t that change anything?” I want to feel spiritually better and write songs from the deepest place all of the time.
I try to let the audience know that I sympathize with them as human beings and I try to make sure there is a moment that “I love you” breaks down the wall, even if it is for a little bit. I used to create the wall. I wanted the attention and to exude and emote, but I didn’t want to be engulfed. Now I want to connect and make sure they don’t walk away feeling like they didn’t have a moment where they felt it. The connection is the part I am seeking first and foremost. When the connection happens, it is a beautiful thing.
I was approached about the Blueberry Sessions, said yes, and here we are. I am learning to say yes because what is the point of rejecting people and not getting involved? I am excited about curating this experience. If people feel the earnestness they will show up and if that area feels spiritually right for what I am doing, I will want to do more.”