“I play guitar for myself. It is therapy. I started playing in elementary school but I don’t play out yet. I want more of my own material. It is so nerve-wracking putting your music out there and exposing yourself. What if people don’t like it? I have a lot of stories, but I need to learn how to put them to music. I write about people and experiences and I need some peer review, healthy criticism and feedback. I am also shy, I have to get over it and try to be vulnerable to other people because the ability to expose yourself transcends music. I played out here one day and someone gave me a $50 bill and told me to keep it up. That was a good day.
I am trying to go back to college and get a degree to get a job to support my music. How do I balance making a living and making music? I feel like there are two doors open and I can only choose one. Music is where I go to relax, what I do when I am bored and it slows down my ADHD mind. I struggle with completing tasks. My goal is to record something this year It took me three years to save up the money to buy the recording equipment and now that I have it, it is intimidating as shit. It is sitting in my house staring at me.
I live at home right now and it is stressful for my mom and me and it puts a damper on my creativity. My mom is the most generous person I know and my rock but I am too old to be living at home. I don’t want to be there and she doesn’t want me there. but we still love each other.
Love is everything but I am scared of writing about that because people have said it a billion times. I am afraid that what I honestly say is going to come across as corny and contrived. But I know that honesty is the only place the music can come from.”
(This was the 1,000th interview for Souls)