“I just graduated from nursing school and got my license. I am elated. It has been an enormous weight for two years. Every day I thought I wouldn’t make it, but kept reminding myself of the patients. When I started, I was naive and doe-eyed. I would go back and tell myself you will want to quit everyday but remember why you want to do this. When you are burned out to your core remember why you are here. I love human anatomy and guts and gore. But I also want to help people. I want to make an impact. The dream started in 10th grade in an anatomy class. We also got to shadow a nurse at a hospital. My grandmother was a paramedic. I have a her strength and personality.
I am waiting to hear back about a job. I want to work in ICU and have a couple of patients and dive in completely and know everything about them.I am very introverted and get peopled out. Dealing people in everyday life is different than caring for people in a hospital. When you see them in a hospital they are at their absolute worst and you empathize with them. My very first patient was the most broken person I have ever seen. He had four blood clots in his lungs the past four years and he had completely given up. By the second week I saw him, he started to having hope again but I don’t know what happened to him after he left.
After graduation was boards. I thought I failed, but passed and treated myself to shopping, eating, and a lot of sleeping. I went to the zoo and I have time to sit and look at the water. I am so thankful to have time again.
I want to be financially secure and look back and wonder why I worried. If you can make it through nursing school, you can make it through anything.
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