“I come out here every day. I am taking a sabbatical from school. I can’t afford it. I am trying to figure things out. It is hard. I am 20. I was recently laid off from my job. It is not the first time and won’t be the last. I try to keep a positive outlook on life because I am bi-polar. There is not a way describe it. You never know what is going to happen when you wake up. If you are depressed of so up there that you do stupid, reckless things. I have highs and lows and in-betweens. When you have serious change is when you are most emotional and outbreaks happen. My moods vary throughout the day. I stopped taking medication when I was very young. I was diagnosed when I was 13. Bi-polar is a disease, not something you make up in your head. It is a constant struggle that never goes away. When I am upset I write in my journal. Sometimes it is hard to know the difference between not reality. When you wake up from a bad dream it is hard to grasp if you are in reality or still a bad dream. I try to live day by day. You never know what the future holds. My fear is not having anyone to talk to. We aren’t close. Everyone tries to make a joke about bi-polar but it’s not a joke. A lot of people lose their lives over it. I couldn’t commit suicide. That tattoo is a calligraphy set that goes along with writing. I have always wanted to be a writer.”